Sunday.

“Have you found Jesus yet, Gump?”
”I didn't know I was supposed to be looking for him, sir.”


As I was watching the awesome film that is Forrest Gump the other night, these lines rang true to me. There are so many people that this is the case for, just look at your neighbours, your classmates, whoever. I’m tired of Christians (including myself sometimes) seeing or hearing about people in the world making choices that doesn’t tie into our set of values and then instantly judging them. Even if they know of Jesus, they still need to be reached out to and shown love, and not just alienated. If not, then what good are a dirty look and a shake of the head going to do? It’s so important to reach out. It doesn’t have to be a big deal if we make it natural to ourselves, as I’ve been finding out a lot lately.

The word “evangelism” can be unhelpful sometimes I think, as it gives the impression that its something that can be put in a box and pulled out for a mission trip, a gap year, whatever. Bringing the message to people should be something done through all our actions and words, and something we should strive to do. This is something I’ve really been struggling through since Christmas. It’s felt like I’ve been on a road to nowhere on occasions, and it’s so hard on a cold morning when you’re tired to make that effort to be friendly to people or whatever, but as I’ve learnt, it is so, so worth it. I encourage anyone who reads this to go out on a limb and really push on.

While we are on the subject, church was quite an interesting experience for me tonight. It was the first time I’ve been for a while, having been really busy with
Embassy lately (which is now my primary church over All Saint’s). While I took part in the service, I didn’t take in any of it. I was basically in an hour and a half long conversation with God for two thirds of the service. Basically he was saying to me that from now onwards will be like a sink or swim moment for me with him. I’m going to be pushed out of my comfort zone more than I already have been (see the first section of this post) and that from now on I will have to start making sacrifices and the like a lot more.

I was reminded of something Dave said quite a while back, who does God reach to? Those who cry out for him, those who are desperate for him. Over the last few days I have not done this. This has changed already. What made the experience weird for me was that it was a completely new feeling. Normally when I encounter God in such a big way I come away from it like a bundle of energy. This was different. I was completely chilled and relaxed. I think this was the sense that although things may get hard for me, God has it all mapped out and that I will come out the other side as a stronger person both in terms of my relationship with God and the way I live my life. Also it was nice to have a really long chat with him and actually spend a large amount of time in his presence…recently I’ve had loads of prophetic stuff from him, but haven’t really maintained my side of the partnership as it were, so tonight was an absolute blessing and something new to me. God is good.